Hello I'm Gillian. At 54 I decided to stop drinking alcohol.
Hello I'm Gillian,
I didn’t think I was an “alcoholic.”
I wasn’t completely out of control.
I wasn’t drinking first thing in the morning.
But I was stuck in a cycle I couldn’t seem to break free from—one glass turning into two, then three, night after night.
I thought I just needed more willpower.
I thought I just needed to cut back a bit.
I thought I could do it on my own.
I didn’t think I was an “alcoholic.” I wasn’t out of control. I wasn’t drinking first thing in the morning.
But I was stuck in a cycle I couldn’t seem to break free from—one glass turning into two, then three, night after night.
I thought I just needed more willpower. I thought I just needed to cut back a bit.
I thought I could do it on my own.
That's me on a beach in Belize 2018.
From the outside my life looked great -
inside I was spiraling.
I know what it’s like to wake up feeling guilty, disappointed and frustrated—telling yourself something has to change.
I also know what it’s like to talk yourself out of it: “I'm not that bad... so-and-so drinks much more than me... I'll be fine tomorrow.”
That was me.
For years.
That's me on a beach in Belize 2018.
From the outside my life looked great - inside I was spiraling.
I know what it’s like to wake up feeling guilty, disappointed and frustrated—telling yourself something has to change.
I also know what it’s like to talk yourself out of it: “I'm not that bad... so-and-so drinks way more than me... I'll be fine tomorrow.”
That was me. For years.
I knew I couldn’t keep going this way.
And then one morning in May 2020, I found myself in the shed on our farm in Aberdeenshire,
mixing up milk for a bunch of noisy, hungry orphan lambs, with a banging headache from the bottle of red I’d polished off the night before.
That was the moment when my life completely changed.
I knew I couldn’t keep going this way.
And then one morning in May 2020, I found myself in the shed on our farm in Aberdeenshire,
mixing up milk for a bunch of noisy, hungry orphan lambs,
with a banging headache from the bottle of red I’d polished off the night before.
That was the moment when my life completely changed.
Giving my favourite pet lamb Twiglet, a wee cuddle.
Giving my favourite pet lamb Twiglet,
a wee cuddle.
“The problem wasn’t the wine.
It was the story I was telling myself about why I needed it.”
“The problem wasn’t the wine.
It was the story I was telling myself about why I needed it.”
I had no plan. I just knew I had to start—and (hopefully) figure it out as I went.
It wasn’t easy.
It was bloody hard.
But it was also the best decision I’ve ever made.
I realised along the way that the idea of ‘giving up’ alcohol was a lie - the truth was that I wasn’t giving up anything!
I was getting back my energy, my peace of mind, my confidence.
I had no plan. I just knew I had to start—and (hopefully) figure it out as I went along.
It wasn’t easy. It was bloody hard.
But it was also the best decision I’ve ever made.
I realised along the way that the idea of ‘giving up’ alcohol was a lie - the truth was that I wasn’t giving up anything!
I was getting back my energy, my peace of mind, my confidence.
“It’s not about giving up wine.
It’s about getting back to you—feeling lighter, more at peace, proud of yourself and more confident.
That’s the joy of sobriety no one tells you about.”
“It’s not about giving up wine.
It’s about getting back to you—feeling lighter, more at peace, proud of yourself and more confident.
That’s the joy of sobriety no one tells you about.”
Over time, the lessons I learned became my path to freedom—one I now share with women just like you,
so you don’t have to figure it out the hard way like I did.
I call it The 5-Step Alcohol-Free Reset, and it’s the foundation I wish I’d had that day in 2020.
Over time, the lessons I learned became my path to freedom—
one I now share with women just like you,
so you don’t have to figure it out the hard way like I did.
I call it The 5-Step Alcohol-Free Reset,
and it’s the foundation I wish I’d had that day in 2020.
“Moderation is just a distraction.
Freedom is a decision.”
“Moderation is just a distraction. Freedom is a decision.”
Since choosing sobriety I've gone on to be
Certified in Sobriety, Nutrition, and Life Coaching.
I help women—just like you—break free from alcohol, get your spark back and build a life you love to live.
I believe in straight-talking support, no fluff, and zero judgement.
I teach tools that really work, and coach you to finally stop circling round the issue, so you can find YOUR OWN path to freedom.
Because you don’t need to hit rock bottom to change your story.
Since choosing sobriety I've gone on to be
Certified in Sobriety, Nutrition, and Life Coaching.
I help women—just like you—break free from alcohol,
get your spark back and build a life you love to live.
I believe in straight-talking support, no fluff, and zero judgement.
I teach tools that work, and coach you to finally stop circling round the issue,
so you can find YOUR OWN path to freedom.
Because you don’t need to hit rock bottom to change your story.
“You’re not failing because you can’t control your drinking.
You’re stuck because you’re trying to.
The moment I stopped trying to control it and just decided I was done... that’s when everything changed."
If you’re nodding along right now, wondering if it’s possible for you too—just know, it is.
And if you’re ready to take your first step, I’d love to help.
You can grab my
5-Step Alcohol-Free Reset the roadmap I wish I’d had, by clicking HERE.
Or, if you’d rather talk it through, I'm here when you're ready.
or
“You’re not failing because you can’t control your drinking.
You’re stuck because you’re trying to.
The moment I stopped trying to control it and just decided I was done... that’s when everything changed."
If you’re nodding along right now, wondering if it’s possible for you too—just know, it is.
And if you’re ready to take your first step, I’d love to help.
You can grab my 5-Step Alcohol-Free Reset Guide—the roadmap I wish I’d had—by clicking HERE
Or, if you’d rather talk it through, I'm here when you're ready.
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